Sophie said

"There is a part of me that is screaming for you to come back
and a part of me that is passive
smiling, even
while you drift away."

She said more, actually -
http://sophiwophi.blogspot.com -

But that was what I have been wanting to say for ages and not sure how.
That was how.

I have my mojo back.
(some of it, I mean)

I had 3 days away on Waiheke. In a unit where I could see over the sea to the beyond, and the sun going down, and the sun coming up again.

I walked a lot in a light was crystalline for 2 whole days - the edges of things etched against the sky.
A present from God, and the sadnesses, all the different ones, came and went with their own rhythm.

Child Gerald and his good friend Lois came here, nearly 29 years ago, just after getting married.

But the Wai Kitchen at Oneroa, broad-bean fritters with fried halloumi, soft goats' cheese and chives, micro-greens and a glass of Man-o-War Waiheke chardonnay weren't around then.

Truly, it is a good place to eat, though un-cheap.

(actually, Gerald may have found the portion too small, the beans too scary, and the speed at which I eat rather too slow. But he would have been entertaining, warm, enthusiastic about trying something new, and glad I had no qualms about spending the money.)

Sophie said it.